It’s the early morning hours when I wake up and one of my arms is completely unable-to-move-it-dead that my fears come hurling at me, “what if it doesn’t wake up?”, “what if I lose the ability to move my arm?”. It’s days like today that my left leg remains feeling heavy with a numb-like achy pain that I question the future of my physical state. Frustration arises when I want to walk two miles but my legs are weak at reaching one. What do I do with all these very real feelings? Do I ignore them, shove them deep in the depths of my heart and let them eat me from the inside out? I can’t. I won’t.
I choose daily surrender of my future. I choose to see myself running, walking, physically able and capable. I choose to see myself thriving no matter what this life brings. I choose to put my hope in things which my dim eyes cannot see. Eternity. Eternal glory. Eternal Beauty. Jesus.
Second Corinthians 4:16-18 says, “Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an external glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
My outward man is battling for healing, battling to prevent this illness from taking away my physical capabilities but inward, oh, inward I am being renewed daily and I must say, moment by moment when I need it! The Holy Spirit, living inside a Christian gives strength and peace, vision where vision subsides and dancing in celebration where the body is limited to a wheelchair! Inwardly we are NEVER limited. Inwardly we can move mountains and leap to the heights of Mount Kilimanjaro!
These trials, our pain, our struggles in this life are very real yet they are light and momentary in light of eternity. God is preparing us for so much greater than our understanding can grasp and what glory will we behold! What hope we have dear friends!
So today, no matter what we face let us choose a positive perspective. Nothing can hold us down. Nothing! Nothing can keep our spirit down unless we let it. We….WE fix our eyes not on what is seen or felt or heard, not on diagnosis or weakness or our own feelings. No, we fix our eyes on what is unseen, that which is eternal, that which can never, no never be taken from us; Jesus, Hope, Life. We do not lose heart!
I am praying for you today. If you would like me to know your specific prayer request feel free to leave me a message and I will respond. You are in my heart and you are not alone.