“…there was thick darkness in all the land of Egypt three days. They did not see one another; nor did anyone rise from his place for three days. But all the children of Israel had light in their dwellings.” Ex.10:22-23
There are storm clouds that can tumble in with fierce abruptness and other storms can creep in with quiet stealth. Either way, these gray-black clouds prevent the light from shining into our day and our vision of light is weak and dreary. There are days this darkness creeps in via trials or circumstances that we cannot control; the person who has stabbed our heart so deep, the loved ones suffering around us, our own physical trials; any one of these and a thousand times more types of clouds come rolling in to our lives and blind us from seeing light. For me, such has been this past month.
Physical weakness, pain, and mental weariness created a thick, ugly fog and sucked the joy from my soul. Oh, I longed to curl up with the Father but found myself battling for words to say. I would open the bible study book I had been going through and I only found a heavier burden to bear. I began to cry out for light, truth, a word, just one word to breakthrough the dark and He spoke, breaking through the heavy clouds,
“I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, My soul shall be joyful in my God; For He has clothed me with the garments of salvation, He has covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decks himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels” Is. 61:10
It is He alone who can give me joy. My circumstances may be darn right torrential ugliness but I am secure in my Father’s love, saved for eternity and loved passionately. My joy is in His presence (Ps. 16:11) And my circumstances may never change, as a matter of fact, they may get down right tsunami-like but that is just THIS life, not the hereafter or my eternal state. All that I can feel and see is temporary. That which I cannot see, that is eternal.
And then He spoke to my heart again, parting the clouds even farther apart, and light shining through, “In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried out to my God; He heard my voice from His temple, and my cry came before Him, even to His ears.” Ps. 18:6
He numbers our wanderings and puts our tears into His bottle. When we cry out to Him, the enemies turn back. We know this because God is for us!!!!! We put our trust in Him!!! (Read: Ps. 56:8-11)
God’s heart isn’t for His children to dwell in the dark. It is to bring us through the darkness, to see the constant of the light always surrounding us. Always here. Always there, where you are. Light. The darkness can thrust us to the Light, if only we let it. In the Light we find the only joy that lasts when all else fades away.
I am crying out deep for those of you reading this today. I don’t know what dark clouds hover over you today but I do believe they can push you closer to the living God, if you let them. You can also choose to stay in the dark. Let us choose, together, to cry out to the God who knows your pain and hears your cries. You matter to Him and He loves you. You are His treasure. I am walking this journey with you. As we draw near to Him, the darkness fades and Light fills our days.
Dwelling in the Light,