Out of the Pit

Two weeks ago, while lying in bed one night talking to my hubby, the distance from Jesus hit me like a ton of bricks. The bricks of fear pinning me to the bed and torrents of tears pouring from me.  Hubby comforted me and ministered to me and prayed for me. Still, I carried  a heavy burden quietly in my soul. Realization of the pit can be the beginning of freedom but we still have to climb out.

It was one week later that I was able to hop on a plane and fly to Nashville, Tennessee. It was a long awaited time with one of my very dearest of friends who lives across the country and we were volunteering and attending the American Christian Counselor’s Conference. I knew God was going to show up but most often He shows up in unexpected ways. The Father is always faithfully reaching out to the weary and broken.

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Me and my soul sister!

It didn’t take long for my soul friend to realize I had been struggling deeper than she thought. And like a good friend, God used her to call me out of the darkness and into the light! She challenged me to walk the path God has called me to walk. Write. Write. Write. Do what God has called you to do through this. I knew she would. That’s what good friends do.

I had the privilege of sitting under Academics, Doctor’s, Counselor’s, Therapists, Pastor’s, Author’s and so many more amazing people. Just to name a few of these richly souled people; John Townsend, Ted Cunningham, Tim Clinton,  Matt Chandler, Ron Deal, Liz Curtis Higgs, Lysa TerKeurst and so many more! God used these people to equip me to better help others, to build up my own marriage and family and He slowly, gently and graciously massaged the pent up frustration out of my heart and released me from that which had been holding me down.

Joni Eareckson Tada and a teary eyed Charise!
Joni Eareckson Tada and a teary eyed Charise!

The summation of all that God had been speaking to me rolled into one when I saw and heard Joni Eareckson Tada. I was able to hug her and tell her thank you for writing and ministering to me.  I have not even finished reading her book, “A Place of Healing: Wrestling  with the Mysteries of Suffering, Pain, and God’s Sovereignty” and yet every time I have picked it up over the last three years, it has ministered to me right where I am. This book, a balm for weary souls, has been an avenue for which God has brought understanding and peace in the storms, a healing of sorts.

It was when she rolled out on the stage and began to speak of afflictions, “Paralysis, M.S…..” She said M.S. second of the many she mentioned. I could only weep. God knew I needed these words. I was reminded that my journey IS hard and my struggles are a part of the process of diagnosis. M.S. is one of those ups and downs illnesses. The one’s that trick you into thinking you are great and on the top of the world and then a relapse comes and you walk through the diagnosis emotions and acceptance struggle all over again. I wasn’t prepared for this part of the journey. Through Joni’s talk God whispered to my heart, “It’s okay. This is normal. I love you. My plans for you are good. I will use this. Sometimes I allow what I hate to accomplish what I love. I am here.”

Psalm 18:16-19

He sent from above, He took me; He drew me out of many waters. He delivered me from my strong enemy. From those who hated me, for they were too strong for me. They confronted me in the day of my calamity, but the Lord was my support. He also brought me out into a broad place; He delivered me because He delighted in me.” 

2 thoughts on “Out of the Pit

  1. Cherise, I am so blessed by what you write. I don’t have a giant struggle with anything…just walk blindly, somewhat mindlessly through my days and weeks. I try not to dig too deep. But you seem to dig all of the life out of each moment. I admire that. I used to be thoughtful…more in tune with my Lord…more aware of His blessings. Perhaps the enemy is blinding my eyes, or maybe it’s just life’s cares weighing me down. Anyway, you encourage me to reach out to Him for more of Him. Thank you. Love and miss your smiling face…Paula

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    1. Awe, Paula, thank you for your kind words. It truly doesn’t matter how big or small our trials, we can truly become numb to the Father’s presence. May the Father revive us and may we live every bit of our lives fully. He lives; therefore, WE LIVE!

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