Five months of this quiet pondering and eight months since posting an update. Life with four children is not necessarily a quiet life but I have been more purposeful at stepping away into quiet. Some days I do better than others. My soul is left wanting when I allow the busyness of the days creep by without breathing in deep the beauty and gift of nature and breathing out thankfulness.
I am learning to inhale and exhale God’s word. Inhaling through meditating and pondering deep and exhaling through prayer and speaking His truths. I have been praying Psalm 91 over myself and the family and learning to stand on God’s promises like never before.
Psalm 103 says, “Praise the Lord, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise His holy name. Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits- who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.”
I am thirty seven but I feel like I am in my seventies. My body feels weak and fragile like a raw egg ready to crack. I am ready for my youth to be renewed. 2 Corinthians 5:7 reminds me that “We live by faith, not by sight.” I do not feel like I am healing but I choose to thank God for my healing anyway. I choose to be reminded that I do not need to “lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” 2 Cor. 4:16-18
My precious husband and I just celebrated our fifteen year anniversary. I greatly rejoice in that! As we took time away from the children and escaped to a small Dutch town in green, rolling hills, we pondered how much has happened in the fifteen years of our marriage and we looked into the future fifteen years and the ages our children will be. It was scary and sobering and immediately fear kicked in at what state my body could be in. I immediately had to take that thought captive and kick it to the pit of hell. I will choose to think on good thoughts about those years. I may be a grandma and it is a very high possibility that all my children will be out of the house. I will still be feisty and strong because my God is strong through me. I will still be exercising my body and mind and loving people in the journey. I will think on things that are true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent and praiseworthy. (Phil. 4:8)
And so today, I don’t make a promise that I will write more often but I will take up the call to use my gifts according to my faith because His calling is irrevocable, good and perfect. I will take Paul’s admonition and ” Be joyful in HOPE, PATIENT in affliction and FAITHFUL in prayer.” (Romans 12:11-12)
Today is a day to rejoice in! It is full of trials, frustrations, fallen people but we can rejoice in the God who stays constant and sure. We have hope!
Please feel free to email me or leave a comment so I know how to be praying for you. Prayer is just one of the avenues by which I love to serve people.
P.S. I plan to post a follow up video to update you on the products I have tried these eight months and the results of those products.