The darkness crept in and covered me. I was unaware it had attached itself, following me like a shadow. I concealed it well to those outside my home but it’s hard to keep it under wraps when you are easily irritated and anger bubbles from odd places of nowhere. I kept asking God, why, where? Was there sin in my heart that I was unaware?
It took studying the effects of this disease and the monstrous rubble of mess laying in the wake of the devastation caused by my very own immune system. The M.S. brain, the soldier, the trafficked, the abandoned, the child of an alcoholic-we are all experiencing the effects of the damage that we would not have chosen, could not have chosen and we wonder what is wrong with me? Damage to the brain. In the sovereignty of God, He created our brains to heal, to restore, to transform. We do not have to be left in the darkness of this place. He presents Himself as our healer and His presence does not leave us alone in our darkness.
Some of us wounded are finding solace and healing in the clinics that Dr. Amen has created. The doctors are using brain scans and then helping the patients to experience massive amounts of healing and restoration via nutrition, counseling and other wonderful methods. Some are pursuing care via professional counselors, therapists, psychologists and psychiatrists and allowing their brains to begin the healing process and changing how they process life to a healthier format.
I am now experiencing a slow reprieve of the darkness via an Immune Therapy. It is bringing a calm of the chaos within and the dark clouds are seeping away. I sigh a relief, a cheering expectation of continued healing. It will take time and I will to continue eating healthy, exercising and allowing the healing process but healing can and will come. I believe that.
My encouragement for you today is PLEASE DON’T GIVE UP! You may be experiencing the storm clouds hovering over you. You may not recognize the person you have become or may have never known the person God made you to be because you have been tainted by life’s traumatic circumstances and from other people’s sin. There is hope for you today. There is healing ahead of you. I will not promise an easy process but healing is good and a gift. God sees you and His plans for you are for good. He can restore the years that have been stolen away.
“She gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her: ‘You are the God who sees me,’ for she said, ‘I have now seen the One who sees me.'”